DAY 3: I choose to be TRUTHFUL to myself.
When my alarm goes off in the morning it takes me a minute to remember who exactly I am… Oh yeah, Bonnie. 😁 After I’ve established that I am me, my next thought is always, “How did I do yesterday?” In other words: Did I let myself down?
“If you betray yourself, if you say untrue things, if you act out a lie, you weaken your character.”- Jordan Peterson 12 Rules for Life
When I consistently disappoint myself; I didn’t speak up when I should have. I spoke harshly to someone. I drank too much. Again. That’s when- if I pay attention- I will hear the small, quiet voice of my inner self. I don’t need to research facts or compare stories with others. I know when I am being untrue because I feel regret.
Regret isn’t bad if it’s useful. Regret is corrective.
Repeated regret, however, is corrosive.
When you believe a certain way but behave in a different way- that is called cognitive dissonance and I believe that is the beginning of many illnesses. Mental and Physical. The misalignment is a crack that will widen with each choice until it eventually breaks somewhere- in your mind or your body.
They are all a betrayal.
Come through for yourself one small choice at a time, and you will be the TRUEST version of you. You will be authentic. Real. And “Real asks us to live from a place where there is nothing to defend and nothing to manage.”- Deborah Adele The Namas and the Niyamas
Truth will light up the dark parts of your soul.
At the end of the day I want to lay my head down on my pillow and know that I’ve been honest with myself. There is no better feeling than waking up to a new morning with a clear conscience. And I’ve discovered that when I string together a few of these glorious mornings- I start to like myself a little more.
Are you someone you want to live with for the rest of your life?
“When you know better you do better.”- Maya Angelou
“When you know better and you choose NOT to do better…you get sick.” – Me 😜
I choose to be TRUTHFUL to myself.